Are we there yet?

Thinking about graduation and spending time with those I love, when I should be studying for biochem. With only 2 weeks left, it is hard to focus. I just want to have it end. 3 more exams, one more lab report. It's gonna suck having to take one flipping class, but that's okay. At least I get my summer for myself. Good luck trying to find a job without a degree though. Yuck!
I observed at the OB clinic today. ..sat in on 2 sonograms and 2 genetic counseling sessions....very interesting. Too bad there is no genetic counseling program here in NM. There are only about 30 in the nation! wow.
Sonography seems pretty cool, too. I would probably get bored doing it every day, but it seems like a neat thing to do. Who knows? I am gonna hang out in Labor and Delivery on Friday. Yeah!!! Gonna bring a sack dinner and camp out. I should probably buy some nice, comfy, flat black shoes for that. hmmmmm
So I should go to bed, but for some reason lately I keep staying up, like I am gonna miss something or forget something crucial. Nothing is too crucial with only 2 weeks left.
I am not trying to think about Landrie, who now wants to move out with her boyfriend. ugh. Speaking of, she just got home....think it's time to go to bed now, perhaps.

My life as a graduate

Okay, I am not a graduate yet, but nearly there. I have no flippin' clue what to do with myself. I am over that whole 30-thing. I mean, I am still dealing with the body thing, but as school winds down for the year (for the past 6 yrs!), I am finding time and energy to work out again. I have muscles!!
I am in so many honor societies...my gown is going to be seriously crowded at commencement with cords, medallions, a stole, pins, the works, and I don't even graduate until December. I want to walk with friends, though. In six years or so on campus, I have really only made friends this past year, and mainly because of Golden Key. Maybe that is why I am such a geek about it. I felt like such a floater until the past year or so. Not any longer. I have awards and certificates galore to hang on my walls...yet no diploma yet. And I can't get a blasted job without it!
Don't get me started on the whole wedding in September and having to pay for it. I think that will be a separate blog altogether!

My honey and me on my thirtieth birthday. 

Would 30 constitute a mid-life crisis?

Okay, I hit 30, and now I am all of a sudden looking into how to take care of myself. I feel like it is downhill from here if I don't take some drastic measures to straighten myself out. Sounds silly. I know I'm young, but I can see the aging. In my mind, one shouldn't start aging until halfway through their life. Well, I plan on living past 60. People say I could pass for 19 still (in shadow, I say), but I am not so sure. My naked body tells all, and yet I still look better than a lot of girls at my college. I just want perfection, I suppose. Who doesn't?
So, I am looking into Ayurveda. I am physically Vata, supposedly. Sounds interesting. Says I should avoid coffee and alcohol, which I haven't liked for a while anyway, even after a 12-yr caffeine addiction. Warm fluids are best, since I tend to get cold easily.
I should be studying for my Microbiology exam. I meant to get up early, but was worried I wouldn't wake up to the alarm. Then, I woke up at 2:30 with my daughter next to me, looking me RIGHT in the eye. EEEEkkk! Plus, my male dog was drooling and panting over our female dog, who happens to be in heat, but won't give it up. But that's another story.
So, I am up early and should take better advantage of it.
It's off to the books I go!!!! 17 more exams and counting......

The weather is beautiful here. 

My daughter is six, and I should be 25 again (but I would go for 28)

I know I had tons written here, but maybe it is meant to be blank for today. Yes, I turn the dreaded 30 in...5 dreaded days.
wow...
They say that women in their 30's are at their sexual prime. Is it because they have an excuse (age) for their physical flaws (cellulite, sagging bottom and boobs, stretch marks from children or the college freshman 15)? Hmm, I am not sure. Is it because they (if they did everything on time) have a career, so they feel like they are coming into their own?
I am not sure how much of this applies to me. I am tired from years of college, but when I clean up, I clean up well. I could work out a lot more, but I have always had a nice body. I am HATING the signs of age on my naked body. What happened to being a hardbody? Why does it take 3 hours a day to maintain that? And why isn't my life arranged so that I can do that? I miss being buff and hard and having my skin glisten. Now I am pale, with staticy hair (another reason I hate winter), I am losing weight but gaining fat as my once beautiful dancer muscles wither away....Where do they go, anyway?
Is there some muscle monster who goes in and eats them away? Can I catch him and get them back?
Honestly, everyone says that 30 is no big deal, but it IS. It's a big deal because the 30's don't exist. I mean, you have your "twenty-somethings", who are still young enough to have an excuse to party and dance all night. They can still dress young and hip and not look silly doing it. It is harder to carry off in your thirties. In your forties, you are visible again as a mom, careerwoman, experiencing a mid-life crisis, whatever. There are clothes and shows and cosmetics and any number of things aimed at both the twenty-somethings and the over-40's. So where do the thirties belong? You aren't old enough to wear elastic-waisted pants, but yet you're spreading just enough to not be able to wear those junior style pants with the ultra low rise and WAY too tight legs. When did my thighs get too tight for junior pants? And why do misses sizes have that room for saddlebags? I am not there yet!!!
So, I can't wear juniors (too tight and slim), yet I am not built for misses.
So, I guess the thirties is about again redefining yourself so that when you get to your 40's, you can forge ahead, gung-ho about your future and what you are doing with it.
I still don't know if I should cry or be happy this Sunday. I want to get out of the house. Maybe I should become more involved in the PTA at my daughter's school. Wow, I am no longer that young mom, but just a mom, of definite child-bearing age. When will they stop carding me at restaurants? They have started already.
Part of me is happy about turning 30...almost like I have a reason, an excuse to be so serious. (I have always been way too serious for my age).
Well, on that note, I have tons of work to do for school. I will graduate in 6 months, and I am scared shitless. I am gonna have to do something else with myself. I won't have the excuse of school to stay out of events anymore....but that is another story for another time.
Adieu, and Carpe Diem, as they say.

I love polka dots & diet cherry coke

I just have to say that polka dots make me happy, which is why I picked this format for my page....in fact, I like them so much I put giant purple dots in my daughter's yellow room. Very fun!
So, my life consists of study, eat, sit and get stiff while I study some more, rush around campus, rush home, rush, confusion, papers everywhere...my SuperEagle sits in the other room, watching TV and waiting for me to come down to go to bed. He will be asleep when I get down. He has been waiting like this for nearly 3 years, as long as I have known him (kinda...that story I will tell another time)....and he must feel like it will never end. I graduate in May, take a year off, and I will go back to graduate school...I am sure he is just tickled pink about that!!
I wonder how many diet cherry cokes I have drank in the past week..? Too many. I drink them to fill my tummy so that I don't eat bags of crackers and other crunchies while I study...that could really add up! Do that for seven years, and I won't be able to fit in my new desk chair anymore. I joke about it, but it really scares me. I am turning 30 next month, which kinda scares me to death, and it partially relieves me. It's like I have permission to chill out and concentrate on my career.....to wear "sophisticated" clothing without looking funny. On the other hand, I don't want to lose all of my vitality (really, it's piss and vinegar, but hey)....and my body is changing. That is the WORST! I have always had a nice body (save the months I was pregnant...ouch!), and I have worked hard at it, but I haven't had time with school....ugh ugh ugh
So, I should get back to my organic chemistry...exam Monday. I am looking forward to the next time that, when I have a minute for my brain to wander, my thoughts go to musing about things like what makes some people shimmer (I already know why the sky is blue), and why some people just make you smile, what does a hug do to us on a physical, chemical, kinesthetic level? Why do they feel so damn good?! :0)
Ok, it's late, and my chemistry is seeping out of my brain...so, Toodles!